Growing every day

i was watching the bourne identity and as i watched Jason describes how he knows how much people around him weigh and if they can handle themselves, where to locate a weapon, how far he can run in the cold, etc… and then says how can i know all that and not know who i am? 

how do we function, communicate, work, eat, sleep, breathe, live, and still feel like we don’t know who we are? are you having an identity crisis? do you really know who you are?

jesus can give you your true identity……..

So my summer job once again pulls out a brilliant comedic moment, 

a couple of months ago i realized that rich black dirt is very appealing for some odd reason. whenever we go and pull out the old and put new black rich dirt in people sit there and compliment it, ask what kind it is, marvel at it, continue to marvel at it, did i mention basically obsess over it? haha its the funniest thing. and one guy came up complimented how nice it was and actually asked if you can get it in tennessee (are you serious) he was a landscaper over there and was here on vacation but my thought was “bro do i look like i live in tennessee?” 

All this got me thinking though how people will marvel at black dirt and usually will ooh and ahhh over it and never see the finished product or atleast we aren’t there to hear what they think of that. there are two quick life lessons i wanna point out here

1. People will always see your flaws (back dirt) and trust me they will point it out stop and stare (sorry one republic don’t sue) and they will def. talk about them. and usually they won’t be there when all of it is cleaned up and there is a beautiful finished product (life is together and something good came from the bad). 

2. Black dirt is the foundation that we lay for the plants and flowers. without it they wouldn’t grow as well. i’m not encouraging mistakes but let’s face it we are human and no one (except my man jesus) is perfect. We make mistakes and they can be black and ugly as dirt but they often hold some ingredient that shapes who we become, we grow from it, we rise above it and it stays somewhere in our foundation (the things we’ve learned). 

3. People see what you don’t, sometimes people marvel and ooh and ahhhh at your black dirt because they know that after all is said and done something beautiful and marvelous is going to come from all of it. in other words they see your potential and see the greatness that awaits to grow out of the muck.

God takes everything even the bad and makes it work for his glory, no matter what we’ve done or where we are it’s never to late to turn back into his arms.

Yep i finally am realizing the age old truth once again…”it’s not about me” 

i’ve read it in a book (it’s not about me) i’ve heard it numerous times but it is the truth “take the focus off yourself” and the result will be amazing. 

Put every ounce of energy and life into God. make Him your number one. 

Selfishness, fear, anxiety, pride, jealousy…all are just some of the products of focusing on yourself. and lets be honest none of these are good characteristics even if your not a christian so take some time and think about this concept i know i’m going to this week…..

dan in real life is a great movie….i just finished watching it and i highly recommend it to anyone.

one of the best lines of the whole movie would def. be “love is messy” that is the truth sometimes love is not the prettiest thing you will see. it can be sloppy and not perfect it holds with it heart ache and pain, but despite the sloppy exterior there is something beautiful that arises out of the chaos and the mess that is sometimes made and its full of passion, beauty, patience, kindness, goodness, tears of joy, and smiles. Love can be messy relationships are difficult they demand time and energy and often are filled with fights and constant work and energy but at the end of the day when you really love someone all the mess was worth the end result of knowing you love that person. 

remember even God understands this concept, he’ll give you beauty for ashes…..

So recently i decided to get my dad the new journey cd and i went ahead and listened to it and enjoyed some of the songs i heard as a kid chillin with dad and also some new ones (well not really new) but i really enjoyed it. i’ve always been big on listening to the old stuff every now and then because the old stuff is often better than the new and to be honest lyrics back in the day blow most rock bands lyrics out of the water today. But whatever i’m not trying to get into a big debate my point is get back to the roots broaden your horizon put down kanye’s rip on doritos and nachos and wayne’s latex discussion and listen to some of the classics that inspired all the new stuff and maybe you’ll even discover that you like the old better than now. 

i also listened to prince today haha purple rain brought back some hilarious memories of my room mate acting stupid and also christ tucker directing traffic in rush hour 3. purple rain will make you sway or move or something so if you lack rhythm put in a lil purple rain or if your married and love life is struggling don’t be afraid of marvin gaye’s sexual healing i always tell my friend matt you just follow marvin and he will direct you in the love area (don’t be doing that crap if your not married)

much love