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Archive for November, 2007
CrAsH part 2
A couple of people offered some interseting ideas to “CrAsH” so i thought i would talk about their points and expand on them.
One person suggested that when we “crash” into someone we put everything we have into that person and that by doing so we can lose it all. The other person asked whether by constantly crashing we can “distort our concept of love?” and I think that both are valid points.
By crashing we can give everything we have into that crash and if we never realize that crahsing isn’t the answer we may only seek to crash into people rather than seeking true love, thus we can distort love and believe that love isn’t worth it and that crashes come and go but we can walk away.
(thanks carrie and cherie)
But here’s the thing with crashing; a crash can have three outcomes. you either walk away, die, or walk away injured.
Jacob was chillin’ one night trying to fight the fear that was in his heart hoping that his brother wouldn’t kill his family he sent before him. As he was sleeping he was awakened and began to wrestle with God at the end of the struggle jacob limped away from his CrAsH with God.
sometimes it takes a crash to capture your attention. For jacob it was wrestling God physically for most of us it is an spiritual battle that we constantly fight between either following God or the flesh….
Another thought… when you desire Love so bad and you do not turn to God and you choose to seek it from others you can become so desperate that you will go out and purposely fight with them you will seek drama, create it, create fights, make others upset, hurt others in the same way you have felt hurt (“hurt people hurt people”) you are longing to know that someone cares about you becasue if they do you know they will fight with or against you but through the fight you know they care because they are taking time and energy to try to fix whatever is wrong so you CrAsH into them. This is kinda twisted but it is true and i know i am guilty of living gossip and drama and it causes crashes all the time. Sometimes your own insecurities and desire to be loves will cause you to lash out. (thanks allyn for teaching me that when someone really does care they will come and try to fix whatever is wrong) Alternative motives can also lead to fights.
Today i asked myself what am i really mad at? and to tell you the truth i don’t know. but i am gonna seek God and figure it out becasue the thing about crashes is they are unpredictable sometimes you walk away others times you don’t. Will your friend stick around the next time you CrAsH into them?
When you place your own personal issues on others you weigh them down and they carry your burden on top of their own eventually they will either become frustrated at the fact that you are unwilling to fix your problems and help with the load or they may drop your load and move on or worse become consumed by the weight of your load and their own load.
Friends are to help you and carry your load with you but don’t forget its still your load so fix it so that through it you both grow. (read Galtions 6:1-5)
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30).
CrAsH
Don Cheadle’s character in the movie “crash” once talked about how people no longer feel warmth or love from people anymore we no longer feel loved or the gentle touch of an individual’s hug it is replaced by the cold shoulder that bumps into you on the sidewalk, so we long for a touch so bad that we “crash” into eachother.
Of course i added my own thought but this was adapted from the movie and it is really true if you think about it. We all long for love we all want to be hugged and feel loved.
Deep down i know that if she were ever to look at me different and out of nowhere take my hand and just hold it… that the simple idea of holding hands would be enough to make my heart melt.
The kid who was abused his whole life and didn’t have a dad around or maybe he did and all the father did was beat him or call him everyhting under the sun but ignore who he really is would kill to hear the words “i love you” he would give every toy and every bit of his allowance just to get one hug from his dad.
The girl who was raped in her highschool bathroom who’s dad was in jail and waited 18 years to talk to her looked for love in every boy she met and would give it all just to be held. She refused to tell her family she loved them but would tell a boy she barely knew. She never learned what real love is.
Do you see the thread that holds all these together; its love. its touch. its your smile its your hug its that soft word spoken from your heart.
The kid grabs the keys and runs hearing the yelling behind him, his mom and dad went at it again and his dad beat him for the last time he finally believes the lies. he believes no one could ever love him… he hears the curses being screamed and each one tears at his scars but none break open because he is numb to the words, yet the scars still bleed. He jumps in the car and speeds off he sees the first telephone pole in the neighborhood and steps on the gas petal until he feels the thump of metal meeting metal and breathes in and feels the adrenaline rush through his fingertips and he becomes sick to his stomach as the last thing he sees is…………………………….
eternity…………………
God loves everyone, he gave his one and only son to die for all humanity the choice is will you accept christ or not? God so LOVED….love….Loved…love…
People need love, they need to see God’s love… who’s gonna help them before they CrAsH?
pushing through
So the last couple of days have been like a daze. everything just seems different. You know when something is bothering your friends you can tell and sometimes it can effect you. Well i don’t know, but i am going through something emotional i think and man it’s just taking its toll on me and i’m trying to fight it but it’s hard sometimes especially when the ones you need are hurting too. I guess we are all in that transition stage of moving to the next place wherever that may be. God give me and my friends and my family strength to hold on and to not allow things in this world to discrourage us. may we remain joyful in you and at peace by remaining in your presence.
shhhh just listen to me…..
This is my thought for the day and possibly the weekend because i’ll be out of town.
We all want to be understood. we want meaning. we want to understand others. we want love. we want to love. we want to be loved.
I read a friend’s blog today and the person was so discouraged and i saw the comments people left and to be honest i didn’t really read what they wrote cause arrogantly i thought i would be able to write the one thing to encourage him. but i couldn’t load the darn page to write someting lol
now i think bout it though and to write to this perosn on the internet is not gonna help them. it may encourae them for a season, but it is not going to be enough to help them. they talked about being in a pit and if i’m a true friend then i need to be wiling to get my clothes dirty and climb in the pit and help them dig and scrape their way out rather than telling them about how Jesus loves them (which is VERY VERY TRUE AND I WOULD NEVER STRAY FROM THAT KIND OF ENCOURAGEMENT) i need to show them Christ’s love. after all aren’t we the “body” of believers and isn’t it our resonsibility to care and love one another?
will i have the answer for this perosn? No i won’t i don’t have any answers barely any for myself, but God has the answer so rather than running my mouth like i usually do i’m gonna take the advice given by Brewster on his last blog and i’m just gonna listen. and maybe through my silence and compassion God can speak to this person in a unique way.
stinks when God convit you, he really showed me that i need to tlak to that kid that i recently had the opportunity to get to know but because of what others may think and my own laziness and insecurities i havne’t given him the time of day. It’s time to change some stuff!!!!!! Be different and be who God has called oyu to be no matter what. and no matter what it may cost you even if its your (fasle) identitiy and popularity in and with others.
Love ya’ll
b-days and keys
Wow tonight/this morning was so much fun, one of my friends’ turned 20 today and so at bout 11pm on the 31st i took her and told her she had to take pics in 19 significant places in lakeland that meant somehting to her. it was a blast and i really wanted to make her feel special after all she was saying good bye to her teenage years. and i told her i would want someone to do the same for me if it were the last night of my teenage life lol. So we had soooo much fun and drove all around lakeland and got some funny pics especially spending 40 minutes tryign to find her car and her keys of which she thought our friends took them as a joke, turned out she just forgot where she parked and we passed the car once or twice lol. Anyway it just made me happy to make her happy so today go out of your way to make someone hapy it doesn’t take a lot and trust me they won’t forget it no matter how small it may seem to you it could mean the world to them. (ironic how that was one of our conversations on this adventure lol)
Ps: i gave her a birthday kiss on the cheek at 11:59am and officially was the last boy to kiss her as a teenager. lol
