Archive for October, 2007
October 23, 2007 at 3:24 pm
· Filed under God moment, college, just a thought, lessons learned, my life, religious, something to think about
Ok well i waited a couple of days to write a blog about my car accident the other day. I think i just didn’t know what to write and didn’t really wanna write lol. but here it is..
So i was gettin’ ready to go back to college and with prayers from my mom, cherie, and myself and those who pray for me daily, i and the other driver survived with hardly any injuries. I been thinking a lot about the accident and it really has affected me. i been really emotional today and today is the second day after it happened and i guess it really hit me how fragile life is, and how some things really matter and a lot don’t. but it has opened my eyes to just love…love…love. i feel different my anthem playin’ in my head has been “stronger” lol but i don’t want that to be my anthem i want it to be “glory to your name” or “no matter what the weapon” lol i really give God all the glory and honor that i and the other two kids are ok. i don’t really have any profound word or lesson i guess i just wanna share how awesome God is that he protected me and that life is so short so live it…Just love people. Love everyone no matter what. Honestly though i think God is working on my heart this weekend was unusual and God i believe has really been shaping and molding my heart to understand what’s important to Him. i know none of this really probably is making any sense but this is how i feel today and i guess i just want to tell you all that i love you and God loves you too. So live life with Love.
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October 17, 2007 at 12:28 am
· Filed under God moment, my life, religious, something to think about
I’m listening to this beautiful song that the chorus simply goes:
can you feel him?
can you feel him?
can you feel him?
can you feel him?
haha how simple, child do you feel him? God asks do you feel me?
like the brush of hair on your face from your friend’s hair in the wind.
like the butterflies you get from a friend’s look.
God is looking at you, do you feel him?
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October 16, 2007 at 4:57 pm
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Hey take some time and do this it is for a very good cause! read into it and then do it it will take 30 seconds and could help many lives!!!!!!!
http://www.one.org/40days/
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October 14, 2007 at 10:10 pm
· Filed under God moment, advice, college, my life, religious, something to think about
Tonight i did some homework and walked out to the lake and called my friend cherie up and asked her to come watch the sunset with me. (even though it was almost done). we went and sat on somekind of pipe fence thing and just marveled at God’s beautiful creation. I told her that i love those moments because “they bring me back to reality that God is really there.” and we just sat and laughed bout stuff and watched the fish jumping in the lake and were amazed that the moon and a couple of stars could be out while the sun was still going down it was so pretty. So my advice today is slow down and recognize God’s creation and thank him for it and brag on him. He is an awesome God who loves to paint sun sets for you (and sun rises for you on the east lol). It was awesome to just take a minute sit back and enjoy my friends company with the fresh “winter” breeze (finally making its appearence) and just realize that God is here and he will never leave you nor forsake you.
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October 13, 2007 at 7:23 pm
· Filed under God moment, my life, religious, sinner's prayer
Sometimes we go in circles in life. i don’t know why that is but we do it. We know something will hurt yet we still do it. We sin boldly and expect for forgiveness. We know somehting isn’t right yet we allow it to stay. We hurt and then heal. What is it that makes us go in circles? If God is not truly the center your life isn’t revolving around him. you are simply doing circles around the world. You were made to hold and sustain be the temple but instead you allowed things in and eroded small seemingly non-hurtful things to come in and create tiny holes in your vessel. Now when you believe all is well you simply drip drip drip until there is room in your vessel. what will fill it? Some of us believe that we need to simply be refilled which may be true but maybe we need to empty ourselves and fix those holes before we can be refilled. You wonder why you never stop dripping and why things of this world seem so much better (things don’t have to be sex or drugs or achohol) complacency, luke-warm, cursing, dirty jokes, not completely giving your whole heart to God, just keeping a little for yourself. Truly if you try to save yout life (even keeping a lil’ for yourself) you will lose your life. but if you lose your life to Christ you will gain it. (no Christ didn’t mean kill yourself…he was saying lay down your nets and follow me) lay down your nets…leave everythign you have ever known or desired or thought you knew and follow Christ. Empty yourself, deny your sinful desire, deny your flesh. Why so i can’t have fun? No my friends you will be a light of hope Joy will pour out of you because your holes are mended by God’s wonderful forgiveness and grace simply ask,repent and accept Christ as your savior. (even if it’s not your first time rededicate again). A girl came to visit one of the students here from up north. she hung out with my room mate and I and her friend on a Saturday. She went back home and a week later gave her heart back to Christ and wanted to thank My room mate and i simply for showing her that Christians do have fun without the drugs and achohol and sex. and for being excited about stories in the bible like david and sampson and JESUS. was i a perfect example when she was here? absolutely not my filthy rags are not even good enough to wash my saviors feet but God used me despite my short comings and my what can be a wicked mouth sometimes. God is faithful when we are not. Let your light shine! you truly will light the dark areas you have life in your lungs not just physical but spiritual life that is birthed through your words! so speak! give it all to Christ! and you’ll gain something more important and valuable than possessions! you’ll gain life everlasting and relationship with your creator and your savior and the power that is in Christ.
if you’ve never accepted Christ or you need to re-dedicate your life please pray this with me as i am about to:
Lord you’ve seen my heart you know that i have sinned that i have fallen short that i have gossiped and that i have messed up but Lord i’m asking you to forgive me of my sins wash me clean and make me a new creation, sinless and blameless before you. I accept that Jesus Christ your son died on the cross for my sins and i ask Him to come into my heart to live in me and to help me to be more like him. I thank you now in Jesus’ name Amen.
If you have prayed this then there is now no condemnation for your mistakes in the past they are cast in the sea of forgetfullness by God and are removed as far as the east is from the west which is endless! they are never to be remembered or brought back up against you! you are a new creation and you saved by Christ!
Thank God that he saved me and I thank him that he always is there to forgive me and pick me back up when i fall and mess up!
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October 9, 2007 at 11:59 pm
· Filed under advice, college, funny, just a thought, lessons learned, my life, something to think about
Ok so i am feeling sophomore year of college!!!!! it’s mid terms baby!!!! gotta love them! right now i’m studying for Pricipal of Ethics and History and Polity of the Assemblies of God and both tests are on Thurs. so needless to say i’m stressin’ and the ethics review sheet was four pages with over a hundred questions on it. Praise the Lord keep me close to the books Lord. anyway so i’m studying and trying to do my best i procrastinated big time and now i’m paying for it! but i really am suprised how much i’m getting out of ethics class i’m really getting into what i’m reading and studying about its really is cool when you sit and talk to your friends and tell them bout stuff that they have no idea bout (watch that pride) but its cool it means i’m enjoying learning. now other classes well we just gotta pray bout them! but no big ideas or profound words just a quick piece of advice
1. don’t procrastinate
2. Pray! God can relieve unhealthy stress just ask him.
3. triscuit “rosemary & olive oil” crackers with peanut butter and jelly and washing it down with diet coke is a bad idea! gotta love college life lol
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October 8, 2007 at 10:02 pm
· Filed under God moment, advice, just a thought, religious, something to think about
I was hanging with one of my good friends and we ate lunch together and as we were leaving i looked back and said “drive back safe.” she was heading home for the weekend because her grandfather had passed away and she was meeting family back near my hometown. Oh and her birthday was today! so all this happened near her birthday but she had a very good attitude and as usual excited about God. i got a call from her on Sunday where she simply said “hey just wanted you to know i got in an accident but i’m ok.” she flipped eight times and landed in a ditch and almost shut down I-95 (i gave her props on that) (you floridians know what that’s like. anyway so she told me the whole thing but what amazed me was how happy she still was. her car is totaled. but she walked away with some “soreness” a lil’ gouge in on her forehead and some nicks and cuts. but she walked away….8 flips…she walked…away! isn’t that incredible she was so happy God gave her what she called a 2nd life for her birthday. I talked to my bro bout this and i told him it was amzing how random and happy she was on the phone despite what had happened and he said two things that really got me! One it shows her creativity that’s why her mind wanders and she doesn’t always make sense to me! but more importantly it shows her maturity and growth in the Lord. despite all hell near her birthday she is just happy to be alive!!! how awesome!!! God owes us nothing yet gave us everything (his son) so today be like my friend and just thank God you are a live thank him that their is breath in your lungs to enjoy your day. i like what she said this is a loose paraphrase: “i’m just glad to be alive to celebrate my birthday.” So today celebrate your birthday (the one when you gave your heart to Christ and became born again and a new creation). Thanks God!
The other lil’ thing i wanted to point out was the last thing i said to her was “drive safe” and a goodbye. it really made me think every lil’ thing you say let it be said with meaning! with thought! make every word count. afterall there is life and death in your tounge so speak life. i always pray for God’s protection over my family and Friends and after that it really made me realize that He does hear my prayers and probably protects them and myself more than i will ever see! Will your next “how are you” “Wuz Up” “be safe” be sincere? Be conscious and cautious of what you say! be a life speaker and a encourager!!
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October 5, 2007 at 4:03 pm
· Filed under God moment, advice, just a thought, lessons learned, my life, religious, something to think about
Today i was checking my myspace and just looking round and saw that someone very close to me had written a lil’ bulletin. now i haven’t talked to her in over 5 months prolly closer to six, so i was curious. i read it and was amazed at How God is really speaking and moving in her life. it touched me so much and lately i have thought of this person a couple of times and i really missed being around her. So i sent her a real brief message and just told her i was glad she was doing well and that i pray for her sometimes and that i miss her. then i ended with “love ya” -rob. I think that’s what really got me cause i really hoestly love her as my friend and i really do care about her. i kinda got almost teary eyed thinkning about how God allowed us to be close for a season and even though it may not have been great at times he allowed it for a reason. i don’t know i guess i’m learning how to love not necessarily crushes or “i like you” but how to love even when you can’t be with someone. learning to love even when it’s better not to hang out or talk to someone. Learning to love unconditionaly. I thank God that love is beyond anything destructible in this World. Love can exist both here and in Heaven. Love is eternal because if God is love and God is everlasting the beginning and the end…. then the logical conclusion is that Love is everlasting. love won’t fail. love is patient. Love is kind…. Tell someone you love them today even if it hurts. (thanx brewster i finally got what that statement means).
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October 3, 2007 at 9:47 pm
· Filed under just a thought, my life, poetry, religious
Another poem… this one is one of my favorites because it is based off things that occured over that day so i wrote what i thought bout them….
I saw you stare tonight. You looked straight into his eyes and saw the color glare from the light. It wasn’t by accident that you smiled you were soaked from the sprinklers and the hair stuck to your face but you still smiled like a child. You got your friend back you don’t know how and you know why but your just glad true love (friendship) won’t die. You realized what he always knew “there must be something different about you.” You tell him your world but won’t give him your heart because you can’t him that part. Something is missing. is it love, is it time, is it wrong to feel this way and talk this way to just my friend you ask is that such a crime? He only smiles back now. He doesn’t push so much anymore did he lose hope did he give up did he accept friendship and nothing more? Why doesn’t he get jealous or fight anymore? Maybe his heart finally tore?! No, he turned and heard this same dialogue from above. God spoke these words to him and aksed him to no longer run. But why does he seem so at ease all of a sudden in such a short time? He heard his parents encouragement and advice that when she comes he wouldn’t have to make her love! It would just be fine. Does he not love me anymore? No, he loves her and asked her to soar. Is there a reason for their unique friendship and unusual trust? Only God can see below the crust. Time will pass their friendship will go on and grow strong, it will last. His question was “when you looked at me did you feel what I felt and see what i see?” “What did that smile mean?”
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October 2, 2007 at 6:58 pm
· Filed under my life, poetry, religious, something to think about
ok here is the free verse i said i would post like two weeks ago lol sorry bout that.
oh and in case you don’t know free-verse poems don’t have to rhyme so enjoy…God gave this to me the day after i had made a difficult decission (which i didn’t stick to) and to avoid an akward sitauition i made myself look busy and started writing and here is what i got.
Seasons come and go can you follow the flow? A month, a year, cannot measure a tear that flows down your cheek begging the pardon of those around screaming for the soft carress of a hand that will extend a finger to wipe the smooth flow from your face. you see clearly what this season has been for. Each tear is just an expression of the physical in the present while the spiritual already anticipated the challenges you face. You move past the moment look ahead to your destination but keep in mind this moment is a foundational stone on whicjh you will stand later during the crumbling rumble of the walls shaking in your level preparing you to move to the next which is more dangerous than the latter. Back to the feeling in the present you look in and see the potential of another wondering if your destinies are intertwined or are they temporary seasons of relationship. That are meant for a seaosn then as the weather changes you make a decission with the discernment on how to predict the weather but that’s not for you to know only the Father God. Now you base your decission off of comfort a place that has remained unshaken and untouched by the father because you closed it off years ago scared of the results of allowing flow to enter into your secret place of complacency. Move past my barrier unfold my limits remove them as they have tried to remove me flow freely as i attempt to follow the tempo and the beat you have set before my eyes.
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