The simplicity of life. I’ll tell you i have had some crzy hectic weeks. some were good some were stressful some emotionaly were tough!!! However this weekend i went home and it was amazing! awesome times with family from movies to pirates to just chillin’, but the best part of the whole weekend was sitting on the couch and having one of my nephews come over and ask me to read cat in the hat to him. pretty soon my two nephews and one of my neices was sitting on my lap eating chips listening contently to me read cat in the hat. I read it with enthusiasm and joy because i felt so blessed and joyous to see them after six long weeks and i laughed my butt of at the fact that the cat ate cake in the tub i still don’t know why that was so funny. my friends laughed a lil’ just at the fact that i was laughing at the book and my sister and grandmother looked on with a smile. after all that i heard them yellin uncle avery now and then to get a balloon for them and i just loved hearing them call me. when i had first walked in the house today though i was so happy to see one of them look at me and start chanting Uncle Uncle and they all chanted with him lol. What a joy!!! to be called uncle and uncie lol i thank God for family and i must say enjoy the simple things. Cat in the hat made my day amazing it didn’t take money or driving anywhere just a lil’ bit of time and i got the privelage of capturing a moment with the lil’ ones. Oh and you know it is amazing one of them is 6 and she likes a boy and she wrote a lil’ note on her paper about how she loved him and he smiled at her and she felt like it was heaven and how she was scared but she is getting to know him. lol it wasn’t those exact words and i don’t really know what she meant but how beautiful that a six year old knows how to love as the Father “it was like heaven.” Let’s love like a child again like the Father. Enjoy the little things in life!!!!!!
Archive for September, 2007
Pirates in the closet
pirate outfit 25 dollars….. pirate hat 7 dollars…. jumpin out the closet and scarin’ your friend…priceless!
i hid in the closet we convinced my friend to come to the room and get something out of the closet for me and when he opened the closet i looked at him and said “hello poppit” haha and he was so shocked and like “what the crap” he grabbed me and was like fallin’ over laughing. of course he said i looked kinda gay but whatever i thought it was hilarious and so did my room mate!!!!!!
HAve some good clean fun this week!!!!
3rd day of fire fall
WOw amazing. Rosevelt hunter did another amazing job and he preached two amazing messages despite going through the loss of his mother unexpectadely just last week. he preached an amazing sermon this morning and preached about “it’s not to late to be great” in the evening. awesome. After service everyone was happy dancin’ to and they tried to ask us to leave but they broke out with “look what the Lord has done” you can’t get good old pentacostal songs like that out there and expect people to leave lol anyway it was awesome though at first i left at the end then i decided to go back in (truthfully to go talk to one of my friends and be round her) ended up just having fun and praisin’ God. it was cool. i’m still workin on expressing myself to God without caring what others think or see and not doing it so they will see! (sorry just being real) i really gotta work on it i wanna dance or jump around to make someone think i’m extra special when i really should dance to show Jesus how special he really is to me. so tonight what started out to maybe get someone’s attention ended up letting go and praisin’ God. Growth is hard but worth it keep praying for me i’m working on all of it. it was cool when we walked out two of my friends wanted me to just grab there hands because they felt the holy spirit all over them and at first i was like “oh yeah” (nothin there that i felt) but then i kinda felt a lil’ energy on my left side where i had grabbed their hand and what started out as me not wanting to act non-religious toward them and look extra spiritual to impress her ended up i really did feel a lil’ what they did. i’m being pretty honest tonight lol oh well that’s a good thing. tonight was a a battle for me i didn’t couldn’t worship or praise like i should and i guess it caused me to be fake or ingenuine at points tonight even after the service so i think i learned a big lesson tonight and that is be real no matter the cost but also step out of your comfort zone like rosevelt challenged us to do tonight and allow God to show you something new. Well that’s all for tonight……
Real quick fix
hey quick fix on one of the things on my blog the “desert.” on the lecture i messed up a little it might be cause we aren’t done with the lecture entirely but anyway here is the revised lil’ info. The defifintion of “sonship” is obedience and trust. i said humbleness which isn’t necessarily the def. more like an attribute and characteristic and i would even say the heart and nature of God (also brought up in class before.) anyway sorry for that lil’ mess up just wanted to make sure you got the right info.
2nd day of fire fall
WOW WOW WOW i’m truly amazed at God. this morning Dr. Rutland taught on the Holy Spirit and the day of pentecost and didn’t give the opportunity for people to receive the Holy Spirit he said he wanted us to be pressure cooked and sek God about it today and allow us to cook in it all day and come that evening “thristing” for it. The crazy thing is i went to service an hour early and when i got there we were wlaking in and a kid was sitting in a chair and another kid jumped on him and the chair broke and they fell to the ground innitially i laughed then realized how emberrassing it was so i tried to make it lighter by telling him i thought it was cool but i could tell it bothered him because he said “well that’s the first time for that” and then he walked over and sat in the bleachers. so i felt bad and convicted and so i text my brother-in-law even though i knew what he was gonna say and sure enough he said “go make it right” so i did and i got to learn the kids name and invite him to eat with us at lunch or dinner or whatever. you could tell he was very insecure and stand offish but had such a gentle voice. The crazy thing bout this story is that 2 weeks ago at youth we prayed for an opportunity that week to open up so we could talk to someone God put on our heart and i cna’t remember if i prayed for this kid specifically that time or another kid but this kid has definatelly crossed my mind before. and isnt’ it amazing how God made a way in the craziest way ever? God works in mysterious ways, i had no idea how to ever approach this kid but he made an opportunity but as God is consistent it took an act of Faith on my part to get up and walk up those bleachers and talk to him. Thank you God that you gave me the courage and conviction to go even though i fouled up and probably origianally hurt this kid by laughing you allowed me to go and make it right. I can’t wait to see an window open for the next kid i am suppose to talk to (God give me courage to move )………….. Service began and WOW tonight i went expecting a “normal pentecostal holy ghost outporing service.” what i got was life changing. the message was a mix of a testimony and a message and blew my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was so God touched it was incredible then the way people were filled was so awesome. As all of us were worshiping being filled and praying. he said that if we had already been filled to go ahead and ask to be filled again. so i asked and i felt it coming slow and i put my hands out as if carrying something and i felt what i describe as two large (bigger than bolling balls) of heat rest on my hands but felt the size of a basketball and it was hot and i felt like it was like “power” or something of God i had to let someone else feel. i was gonna grab my room mate’s hand but i didn’t and i felt like praying for a healing work in a friend so i went to touch her and she was already on the floor on her knees being prayed for so i reached out and layed my hand on her shoulder and prayed for healing and so on and my hand just felt hot. and don’t know of she was healed or what she received but i know God did something awesome in her. (it was aweosme cause three people prayed for her). anyway i just left the service in such peace and i felt the enemy combat me with crap that has been trying to get me down but i did something that probably shocked the enemy i went over and gave a simple hand shake without realy any eye contact to the kid i been holding a grudge towards or at the least has caused me pain to even look at. and i felt good about it. i could have been more friendly but i felt that for tonight it was a huge step in letting him know i don’t hate him and for anyone who saw to know God changed something in me tonight. or at the least confirmed what i been hearning and knowing all week. that God is faithful and will see me through and something great is at the end and to LOVE everyone. Dr. Rutland ended by telling how faculty and people all around the campus have been coming up to him telling him that God was gonna do something on this campus. My room mate and i looked at eachother and just were in shock and smiled because we been saying that for weeks now. really before school even began. that “God is up to something big” i don’t limit it to southeastern though i think it is bigger possible worldwide. GOD MOVE FREELY I DON’T SPEEK FROM AN EMOTIONAL EXPERIENCE BUT A REAL ENCOUNTER WITH THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE.
the desert
Today i learned something amazing and very relevant to my situations. In Life of Christ today we discussed the temptation of Jesus. (all these notes were from Dr. Neuman and i don’t claim any of them because he deserves props this was an amazing lecture i will do my best to give you a condensed version) The story of Christ’s experience and temptation in the desert parallels the israelites journey throught the desert. both the old testament and the new testament discuss how God LED (which there is a much stronger verb when translated used for the verse in the situation with Christ but i’m no theologin so i will leave it alone look it up for yourself) Christ and israel into the desert. the purpose for christ to go into the desert was to be tempted by satan. In order for Christ to learn obedience (which he was without sin but true sonship is defined through the trial of the desert in order to test your obedience) he had to be tempted because it is difficult to fully relate and comprehend fully without experience. Plus as stated earlier sonship is defined through obedience. The israelites were sent into the desert “to be humbled and tested.”-deut. 8:2-5….. Heb. 5:7-8 is amazing and full of revelation. Christ prayed to God and was heard “…because of his reverant submission.” SIT ON THAT FOR A SEC then check this out “although he was a son, he learned obedience from what he suffered…” There is sooooo much more than this and so many parallels and revelations through this study but what i took out of it was this. God not satan but GOD led Christ and Israel into the desert. “initially God led israel into the desert it was the israelites sin that caused them to stay there for 40 years God did not want them to stay in the desert..” (adapted from Dr. Neuman). Isn’t that crazy God leads us into the desert to teach us what true sonship and daughtership (is that a word? lol) is: and that’s obedience. Its to humble. when you are humble you recognize God as your provider and source. TRUST TRUST TRUST!!!! God had been trying to teach me to just trust for months now!!! really years!!!! and so now when i am in the desert (if you been reading my past blogs) i realize God led me hear but in verse 3 of deut. chapter 8 he also said that he humbled them and caused them to hunger but then fed them with manna…!!!! God will not lead you to the desert to forsake you but show you who you really are in Him. “he knew what israel was made of but they didn’t know what they were made of” (dr. Neuman). God knows you are his sons and daughters but you need to know that and sometimes you gotta go to the desert to really test your obedience to truly submit to Christ and become who you were called to be and fully understand what Christ lived!!!!! and to fully understand what being a son/daughter of God is. it’s humbleness and obedience. Christ could have come down from the cross but he died for you and me aren’t you glad he was obedient to the father’s will and plan? so will you look at the desert and curse it or embrace it with eager expectaion for the promise that he will never leave you nor forsake you and has plans to prosper you and not to harm you?
Fire Fall day 1
well fire fall for southeastern university started this morning. It is basically like a camp meeting for the school. It was awesome i am not sure of the speakers name i will post his name later when i get it. The service was not what i went in expecting. yesterday i talked about how sometimes these things are just hype, emotions, and people thinkin God told them something or if he did they don’t really live by it (i’m guilty). But it was amazing The preacher started by encouraging us (just like my mom stated yesterday: “it (fire fall) is probably meant to encourage you.” The preacher talked about “following through” and wow it was awesome he talked about every issue going on in my life from wanting to quit to feeling alone dealing with depression, having friends abandon you. It was like he was all up in my cracker jack box stelaing my prize today. It was amazing and i really am glad that i fought the urge to sleep in this morning and went. Remember when your flesh fights you the most that’s usually because there is some reason, mine was that i needed encouragement and i have to say that was a spirit booster and i feel a lot better. It was aweomse to here him talk about things that God has been delaing with me about and talking to me about. like love when everyone around you hates, and go in when everyone goes out…etc just love like God basically and that’s what God has really been dealing with me about. i’m excited to see what God does the rest of the week. and the friends situation isn’t what i want it to be but it’s better than what i put in my last blog. things aren’t the same but maybe that’s ok. one of the ways to follow through is to “be Christ in order to be a true a true christian. So love like he does do what he does be Him” (adapted from speaker).
LOVE TODAY
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Sometimes God has to remove things in your life to get your attention. Sometimes you see the real side of people and it breaks your heart. Sometimes you see yourself for who you really are and it scares you. the good news through all of this God is faithful… Today i lost it feels like all my friends… i lost one by choice…one because of situations at the moment… and the others i don’t even know what they will do… The thing is i don’t hate and not even really mad at any of them. I’m hurt and feel alone. i had to say goodbye to my best friend today with tears filling my eyes. it wasn’t necessarily by choice and i pray God can fix it somehow but for now it’s not a good idea that we hang out other than every now and then. some other stuff happened that made me sad too. but when all is said and done i have God. everyhting has been shaken in my life but he is the only thing that remains constant and unshaken and stable. and i have always turned to others and as my sister pointed out it’s time to turn to him. Please be praying for me this is really hard and i never expected my sophomore year of college to start out by loosing all the friends i had made from the year before. All this really is teaching me though that if you don’t admit you have issues and fix them they will catch up to you. and if you put things or people before God he will have to move them maybe for just a season but don’t let it come to that. I pray that through all this is a great change in me and my friends cause we all really need a word from God and i pray he helps change all of us.
You sure? ok! you got it!
Told you today was a blog day. So i learned something tonight. when you ask for something be ready to get it and don’t whine when you do. Sometimes we have a good idea maybe even a God idea and we speak it but then later get scared or circumstances cause us to change our mind maybe when we weren’t suppose to. Well i told my friends in the beginning of the year that we should hang with different people and groups then when it happened i took it personal. See i learned that i asked for somehting and when it happened i got mad. Plus its important to remember a true friend won’t ever really leave you they always stay close. Don’t jump to conclusions i know my friends love me they just doing what i and my room-mate suggested so i have no right to get bent out of shape bout it. Plus what i see usually isn’t what is actually true. I once read that it is wrong to judge others because you don’t know their motives and you usually don’t even know your own motives in situaitons so why judge someone else’s. (thanx history of evangelism lol). So learn to accept change. It’s hard sometimes but it happens for a reason.
Circles
Today is a blog day i just feel it. Life is like a merry-go-round some times. If we get stuck on the same song so long we never wish to try a new sound. if we find a tv show we love we believe that all other shows are junk compared to that one show. We eat some sould food and never desire to eat italian again. We love once and never believe we can love again. I was sitting and listening to John legends song “again” and “another again” and it just kinda got me thinkin how we get so trapped in our own lil’ world we just get on that old horse next to the booth and we go up and down and round and round going to that tune of the world with all it’s pretty flashing lights convincing us to stay. We look and see a reflection in one of the many mirrors on the large center pillar. Sometimes God let’s us get on the merry-go-round and ride to the beat of the world while he stands there as the pillar of my life asking me to no longer look and see a reflection of myself but to change..and become a reflection of Him.
Now you can love again.
Now you can live again.
The crazy thing is as i was listening to the albumin the next song he started singing bout how the world keeps spinning and going around after i wrote this. obviously this is for someone out there. Be encouraged God loves you and i dare you to jump off and do something different ride the shiekra (roller coaster) let God do some maintence in you today.
